I have been thinking a lot recently about all the different times you find yourself saying goodbye. When you think about moving on to start a new chapter of your life, this is normally due to a end of a relationship, a family move or job move etc. One thing I have never really thought about is saying goodbye to a friend.
A friendship doesn’t tend to have the emotional ups and downs that a romantic relationship might. It’s just a steady flow of love, advice, drinking and venting sessions – give and take. Friendships for me are a constant, something you never worry too much about because it will always be there, as it always has. Friendship to me is the equivalent of the comfiest pillow I own. You never picture that pillow going away.
So alas here we are. As much you wish your friendship alone can solve any problem, mend all heartbreak, and be the cure when there’s no other way, this isn’t life. As we grow and we learn, we realise there is some hard decisions we have to make for ourselves. There are some tough choices that not even our friends can help us make. Sometimes that choice is moving away.
So to the friend who inspires me. To the friend who’s bravery I’m in awe of. To the friend who life has dealt some tough blows. To the friend that came back swinging every time. To my friend that did the unimaginable. To my friend that now has to go.
Life carries on and changing directions is all part of that. The maturity you have shown in making this decision is just one of the reasons why I love you. There is still plenty of time for you to come back and live your London dream.
I talk a lot about making sure you look after yourself. Your physical and mental wellbeing should be the most important thing. Happiness can sometimes be the most difficult job of all because you are forced to make difficult choices regarding what will truly make you happy. Honesty is easy for most of us until it comes to being honest with yourself. The task of having to accept the ‘this isn’t working’ feeling is daunting. It is daunting because it is so easy to get caught up in that feeling. It is so easy to dwell and depress yourself by rehashing the millions of reasons why this isn’t working. It’s at this point you result to convincing yourself you are failure as your self-worth plummets.
The even trickier thing to do after the acceptance is finding a solution. To sit and wallow about how awful life has become is easy. the real work is in fixing it. So when you have the opportunity to watch someone help themselves, it’s a beautiful thing. Of course you extend your arm of friendship and support. Your presence to them is present enough. The fact that you are willing to help makes them feel less alone. You will sit and chat for hours, empty your purse, traipse around London looking at houses with them.
No. They need to do this alone. They need to fight their own battles and create their own solutions. That’s okay. You understand because you’ve been there too. Now you get to bear witness as they become their own hero. Their life is back on track purely because of the choices that they are now making. This is nothing short of amazing and watching this makes you further your own action plan for your life.
As I’ve said before babe, you amaze me. I’m so proud of you and the choices you are making. Saying goodbye to you is going to be extremely difficult. However I know you have thought this through and this is best decision you could have made. You will always have my love and my time. My arm is forever extended to you if you ever were to need it. Changing your plans doesn’t mean you are failing. You have grown up and matured in ways I never did. The man your have already become is a man I am so privileged to have in my life. I can’t wait to watch you continue to grow and achieve the impossible. You are the most loving, caring, funny and honest guy I know.
I wish you all the best. This is not goodbye, this is a see you soon.
Stay Bliss, Laura
For my dearest Cameron – btw we are partying from now until you leave and that’s a fact!